My presence in the present

Today as a day I repent a lot. My dreams and hopes are snatched away. I think alot about what went wrong and see myself standing amidst chaos. If only had I planned my efforts more efficiently.
I cease to believe that it was my hardluck.Luck, I think, is omnipresent as well as neverpresent.
"Nothing is true and nothing is false", this is the best to describe as to what I am feeling. Throughout the year, "as the day rose, I rose with my dreams and conviction behind them, but my purpose wasn't fixed, I didn't write down a specific goal, and hence the conviction faded as the day went to sleep."
If only I had had planned my destination. I pushed myself hard devoid of any direction. I look back and say if only had I instilled a sense of control with respect to time.
I see my eyes today and feel they don't want to be a part of me. I see my soul today and I don't savor it, I see it hollow.
Pain is so obscure, so undermining but pain is so pure. I feel "pain trickles" running through my body.I don't experience it but I feel it.
I have to fid hope and desire from here. I feel I have the ability to succeed. I tried to go through the least trodden path to find my inner pleasure and the treasure within me. I did walk on that path but in the opposite direction and I have ended up digging out pain and displeasure.
May be this is the impetus that I need, may be this might lead me to my burning desire, which I hope becomes my fulcrum. Maybe this paib will rekindle my spirit and awaken my soul. I am waiting for that one sparkiling moment which will transform the way I think.
Now, I get up under my eyelids and feel why should I move them. Do I deserve to be present. Do I deserve to be felt. Do I deserve to be happy. Do I deserve to be sad. Do I deserve what I am going through. Did I deserve what I went through.
But I would like to thank God for the belief that I deserve to go through what I am going to go through.
If only could have I written this piece in a better way.

There was so much I wanted to achieve.

There is so much I want to achieve.

The thing which is gonna remain common is ME.

It's me who is gonna execute them.

All that I need is a winning attitudefrom hereon.

I request god to give me the belief to accomplish my dreams.

I believe I have the potential and the only thing

I need is the belief in my purpose.

My inspiring literature

When you are inspired by some great purpose,

some extra-ordinary project,

all of your thoughts break their bonds,

your mind transcends limitations,

your consciousness expands in every direction and

you find yourself in a new, great and wonderful world.

Dormant forces, faculties and talents

become alive and you discover yourself

to be a greater person than

you ever dreamed yourself to be.

Introspection

I have a feeling that I need to stop and gauge myself, my strengths and Weaknesses.

Time is so priceless. We all get 86,400 seconds of it everyday.
A rich businessman, a beggar along the roadside, each one gets the same amount everyday.
We can only imagine the great divide in the utilization of the seconds.

Einstein's theory of relativity enumerates this valiant truth in a sermonous fashion,
" An hour spent with aloved one seems only a minute but a minute spent on a hot pan seems an hour."

I even dream of the day I never waste a minuteand even try to savor my heart's delight having done that. Not realising that I am wrecking that dream, just as I am dreaming about it.

My poems

Feelings never die down,

they are hidden by circumstances.

The more deeper ones are

forced all the way down.

My poems

Everyone loves the feeling of comfort.

There is a feeling of comfort,

even in saying it.

It is a foremost thing,

rich relish

and the

poor strive for.

May be that's why I like the feel of cotton on me

My poems

The day today is the same,

but the time today is vastly different.

Things that I thought would never occur to me,

are today pushing me on.